"For God so loved the world that he gave his only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life."
Growing up, I never truly understood what it meant when I was told that God sent his son to save me. My mother never truly explained why Jesus had to die for me. I lived in a single parent home, which wasn’t always easy especially since my mom was mentally checked-out. Most of the time, I was the only one around to raise my baby sister. While other kids worried about playing outside, I had to worry about my sister.
When I was about fourteen, I faced a family tragedy. I felt alone and I couldn’t believe what was happening to me. My mom wasn’t there for us and I didn’t have family who could guide me through this time. I was angry with God because I couldn’t understand why this was happening to me. How could God, who claims to love me, allow pain and suffering in my life?
The years went by and I was detached from God. I knew I believed in him but at the same time I didn’t want anything to do with him. Once in college, I met a friend who often wanted to reach out to me and teach me about God’s love. I wasn’t ready. I didn’t want to hear it. Therefore, it took me facing rock bottom, more challenges, and more tragedies to see the void in my life. I knew there had to be more. I needed more. I didn’t realize that I was yearning for my heavenly father. Once I opened my heart and let him in did I truly understand his sacrifice. I didn’t have to carry the pain or the burden of everything I had faced. I could let go. He loves me and wants to carry me at all times but especially during difficult times. All I have to do is open my heart and see that he loves me so much that he gave his son so that I can enjoy him on earth and join him in heaven one day.
Imagine having someone who loves you despite what you have done or been through. In His eyes we are His greatest creations. He wanted to save me before I was even created. How awesome is that? When I am facing hard times, I am not alone. I am loved and cared for. I don’t have to pay for my sins because Jesus already paid the price. He has carried the cross…my cross.
Maybe you are at that point where you don’t know why things are happening to you and you feel alone. You are not alone. You have never been alone. I challenge you to have quite time with God allow him to consume you with His love and grace. Let go of all your burdens because God send Jesus to carry them. Ask God to help you accept that you are free because of him. Remind yourself that He loves you so much He sent His on to die for you. Because you have accepted God in your heart and continue to follow him, you will have abundant and eternal life. You are FREE!
Suleidy Kangas has been attending The Journey-Queens with her husband Ian for 4 years. She served this past year as a Welcome Team Coordinator. On November 28th, she will be celebrating 6 years of marriage. She and Ian will be moving to Virginia on a new adventure.